2 years...

today (june 11th) is 2 years of officially waiting. it was 2 years ago that we handed all of our paperwork over to ccaa to apply for adoption through china. our wait began with waiting to hear when they received our dossier (fancy word for 6 months worth of paperwork and jumping through hoops.)

in the eyes of ccaa our wait officially began on june 20, 2007 when they "logged" us in.

even so, i count those 9 days 'cause each day of waiting was just as real as today!

the week leading up to now was exceptionally difficult, mainly as i was dreading the idea of facing the 2 year anniversary itself... and all that it represents.
in this life, there's always going to be something to bemoan. this adoption process certainly allows for a lot of bemoaning material.

however, today i'd like to focus on a few differences between then (june '07) and now...
in the past 2 years we have read, studied and learned a lot about institutionalized/orphaned children.
in the past 2 years we've had ample time to contemplate and discuss our 'ideas' of parenting styles/preferences.
in the past 2 years we have had to readjust our timeline and relinquish many false ideas of control...
in the past 2 years i've had surgery and have enjoyed good health for 15 months!
in the past 2 years we've experienced the joy of having life on life local friends!
in the past 2 years we've reevaluated so much about who we are and what we believe.
in the past 2 years we have grown to love fusion more than we could have ever imagined.
the past 2 years have certainly been difficult - waiting always is - but they have also been a sweet gift from Dad.
the past 2 years have been an amazing blessing...


“Kiss your life. Accept it, just as it is. Today. Now. So that those moments of happiness you're waiting for don't pass you by.”
~Unknown