30/70... and counting...

i am certainly one of those people who love the phrase: "give me the facts ma'am... nothing but the facts."
i know, i know. i'm not the best at just giving the facts, but i'll try. a little.

only heard of 2 expedited referrals that went out late this month.
very unusual.
both were referrals for april.
that means we're not yet into may.
which means we still have the month of may between us & our referral.
in short, it doesn't look like we'll be returning to the states with baby in tow.

surprisingly, i'm at peace.
but still hopeful...
hence the 30% chance that we'll return with baby.

fact: i believe in miracles.

50/50... or not?

when may began i would have bravely told you that the possibiity of having our child when we returned to the states was 50/50...
which considering the last 2 years, we believed was favorable odds!
however, again something unusual has happened this month.
thus far no one & i mean NO ONE - not anyone that lives here, not someone of this countries heritage, not even foreigners overseas - have received any word on referrals. this is a first.
naturally, we are saddened by this turn of events... especially as the possibility of our wait till we receive our child lengthens.
but we will wait. and we will wait prayerfully and with thanksgiving.

in our hearts we believe:
God has directed our steps to this particular adoption journey & he is in total control. and he is good.
these children are not ours to claim. they are a gift from this country. we will forever be grateful to them for our child.
God is the ultimate babysitter and he is capable of meeting all of our child's needs.
God is certainly using this prep time to make us into the parents our child deserves. and we are grateful for this opportunity to know and depend on him more intimately.