howdy followers.
we're so thankful for every single one... ok, for the one of you who follow this blog in anticipation of great news.
i'm trusting that it will happen in due time...
but apparently we're still not due!
last we heard our file was banging on the matching room door.
still don't know if it made it in or not.
so for now, we're just a waitin'.
and as usual, we'll let you know when we know!
until then, please say a little prayer for our lil' one...
we know they're making it through!
continuing to trust that it's all in his perfect timing...
today we got an email that said we have not yet made it to the "matching room."
the matching room is that special place where our picture and info is matched up with our soon-to-be-child. in essence, we are in the waiting room...
waiting to be matched.
we are so grateful for the Master Matcher for he knows in advance who are child will be... and when we will be matched by CCAA!
pray for a speedy transfer and that we'll soon experience the joy of welcoming our child into our family!
and just think... all of that joy without labor pains! i'm sure jet lag doesn't compare!
;)
today, june 20, 2009 marks the 2 year anniversary since we were officially logged into the china adoption program.
and even though there hasn't been a lot for us to do during this time, i feel like i have accomplished the impossible by waiting so well!
ok, so i haven't always waited well... but i am still waiting!
i am excited to report that as of today people are receiving referrals... and supposedly this batch contains some expedited referrals (people who are in a shorter line due to heritage or living on the east side).
the nitty gritty: currently there are reports that the china adoption program agents have matched some expedited cases (thus far i've only heard of heritage matches)... so it looks like it still might be a while before we are holding our child's picture and jumping up and down with joy. however, we rejoice that the line is moving...
also, our agency recently sent an email saying that they were told that we would be moved to the "matching room" with the next batch of files... but even still, there is no way to say WHEN we would be matched.
so we continue to wait.
thank you all for your loving care during these past 2 years... and for praying with & for us during this long journey.
today (june 11th) is 2 years of officially waiting. it was 2 years ago that we handed all of our paperwork over to ccaa to apply for adoption through china. our wait began with waiting to hear when they received our dossier (fancy word for 6 months worth of paperwork and jumping through hoops.)
in the eyes of ccaa our wait officially began on june 20, 2007 when they "logged" us in.
even so, i count those 9 days 'cause each day of waiting was just as real as today!
the week leading up to now was exceptionally difficult, mainly as i was dreading the idea of facing the 2 year anniversary itself... and all that it represents.
in this life, there's always going to be something to bemoan. this adoption process certainly allows for a lot of bemoaning material.
however, today i'd like to focus on a few differences between then (june '07) and now...
in the past 2 years we have read, studied and learned a lot about institutionalized/orphaned children.
in the past 2 years we've had ample time to contemplate and discuss our 'ideas' of parenting styles/preferences.
in the past 2 years we have had to readjust our timeline and relinquish many false ideas of control...
in the past 2 years i've had surgery and have enjoyed good health for 15 months!
in the past 2 years we've experienced the joy of having life on life local friends!
in the past 2 years we've reevaluated so much about who we are and what we believe.
in the past 2 years we have grown to love fusion more than we could have ever imagined.
the past 2 years have certainly been difficult - waiting always is - but they have also been a sweet gift from Dad.
the past 2 years have been an amazing blessing...
“Kiss your life. Accept it, just as it is. Today. Now. So that those moments of happiness you're waiting for don't pass you by.”
~Unknown
i am certainly one of those people who love the phrase: "give me the facts ma'am... nothing but the facts."
i know, i know. i'm not the best at just giving the facts, but i'll try. a little.
only heard of 2 expedited referrals that went out late this month.
very unusual.
both were referrals for april.
that means we're not yet into may.
which means we still have the month of may between us & our referral.
in short, it doesn't look like we'll be returning to the states with baby in tow.
surprisingly, i'm at peace.
but still hopeful...
hence the 30% chance that we'll return with baby.
fact: i believe in miracles.
when may began i would have bravely told you that the possibiity of having our child when we returned to the states was 50/50...
which considering the last 2 years, we believed was favorable odds!
however, again something unusual has happened this month.
thus far no one & i mean NO ONE - not anyone that lives here, not someone of this countries heritage, not even foreigners overseas - have received any word on referrals. this is a first.
naturally, we are saddened by this turn of events... especially as the possibility of our wait till we receive our child lengthens.
but we will wait. and we will wait prayerfully and with thanksgiving.
in our hearts we believe:
God has directed our steps to this particular adoption journey & he is in total control. and he is good.
these children are not ours to claim. they are a gift from this country. we will forever be grateful to them for our child.
God is the ultimate babysitter and he is capable of meeting all of our child's needs.
God is certainly using this prep time to make us into the parents our child deserves. and we are grateful for this opportunity to know and depend on him more intimately.
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